I'm British and have been with my partner for nearly six years, married for 5. We have two daughters together. We haven't been in great place for a long time. He is a great father 80% of the time, but as a husband it's more like 0%, our relationship is non existent.
My husband has a deeper connection to his playstation, social media and cannabis. Our lives are heavily affected by the later. The financial side, trying to keep the habit and the emotional side when he cannot have it for whatever reason, has driven me apart from him. I'm not just talking about the odd joint, i'm talking habitual, cannot function without smoking it. When he doesn't smoke it's terrible. He has zero patience or tolerance towards me or our daughters. Which isn't easier as our daughters are 2 and 3 years old, so they test me as toddlers do.
I'm now at the point where i think i have to start making other plans for our future. However i do not have a single cent to set up alone, as I am a stay at home mother. We have a very low income and after the bills are paid, food is bought and my husbands' allowance for cannabis and cigarettes are bought we have nothing left.
I have no family here that can help me and my elderly mother is back in the UK. I have no way of raising a bond to move out into our own place. I've sold practically everything i own to supplement our family needs when we have no money.
I'm hoping to find out if there is any type of support for women to leave the family home and set up as a Single Parent, when they literally have a few clothes to call their own. I'm scared to go to Centrelink, as i don't want to tell them about the drug use and risk having my daughters taken away from me. My husband isn't violent and never has been, but his addiction is taking over our lives.
does anyone know where i can reach out for help? I feel lost and stuck, like i will never get out of here.